Witness My Friendly Love Story
*11-Dec-06, 20:14:14♂ bhez… naniniwala k b s s0ulm8… aq oo, kta q na xa! … lamu qng cnu, de ikw! And I hav an evidence!...
♀ (unsent) aq daw soulm8 ña, PROVEN n un! Fortunately, s lhat ng signs n hiningi q, he was all the answer! Kea lng, mg-bhez kme eEh, sad!
*msgs ng bhez q sken, summer of 2007 (6-April)
♂ 2yrs 8mos and 3days n pla tau n0h?... tgal n rin! Bl8td nga pla, monthzari nga pla ntn nung 3 noh?
♂ pg kinsal u, bhezman aq wah?...
♀ antanga natoh, panu k mgigng bhezman e kw ang mgigng gro0m! hehe,☻
♂ ska ninong aq ng first baby muh!...
♀ adika bhez, kw magigng father ng baby q, heheh, ☻
♂ pglaki ko, hahanapin kta!... bhez p rin tau ha? Til d end of tym, pramis!
♂ miz n miz n tlg kita!...
♀ hanggang miz n lng b tlg? D b pwdeng svhn mung mhal mu rn aq? haAayz… =’(
♀ know wat, 2 tel u d truth, sumtymz, I realyz dat im tired and fed up of being jaz
♂ (jaz a qu0te from hm… h0w I wsh diz msg s true) try diz, it’s rily cute, go to write msgs, options, dictionary, englsh, den typ diz 4092680968086056690842804073255905683096807606824111 h0pe u get my msg ryt!
=minsan, aksidenteng ngkita kme ni bhez sa kanto… snce den ngtxt na xa mdalas…=
*01-Sep-07, 19:15:56
♂ ei bhez! Gudeve…mngDsturb vah?? E anung mgwa namimiz kta?! Lam muh, ibang-iba kn! Ska ung world n gnglwan muh?! Pe0 d2 lng aq wah?! Yngatz lague, luvU… bhez…
♀ (exact msg unsaved) I told him n d aq ngbago and dat I’m ztil ME!
*01-Sep-07, 20:53:00
♂ ui eply xa?! K kung 22o panu qng nde? Bhez how’s
*02-Sep-07, 15:51:07
♂ bhez, zta, noh gwa muh?! Dn’t 4get 2 rest?! Lhat ng tao npapagod, unlez d k tao?! My msbe lng?! Nga pla, alien k nga pla?! Moja, moja q!, j0wk lng…
*03-Sep-07, 10:31:29
♂ ei bhez, san u? nsa skul kb?! Galingan u jhaAen wah?! S teacher lng tingen wag s mga boys! Jowk?! Take care, hav a nice day… lovely day!
*03-Sep-07, 18:32:45
♂ bhez, gudeve, zta na? how’s
♀ (not an SMS) nsa sakayan aq ng tric, gabe na, ayaw p mgpasakay nla manong, bglang my lumapit skn, c BHEZ! My kxma xa eEh, sbe nung bata: “ay, xa ba un?!” w0w, uzta nMn un. Knukwnto pla nya q s frnds nya, kilig!!! =.>
*03-Sep-07, 22:44:59
♂ gudnyt bhe?z pgbutihan u puh ung rtkel u?! ska ung play nyu! K, geh, gudnyt xe nyt n eEh?! Luv u puh, yngatz lague wah, bhez, nyt!
♀ (not an SMS) dito q kinilig, bkt xe “bhe?z” eh, BHE nb twagan nmen? Ahehe, wish q lng… d q xa maEplyan lague xe smart gmet nya, kainiz!
=conversation with Jefferson Velasco=
*09-Sep-07, 22:24:34
♪ ou nga eh, pinapaamen q n nga un dati kaso ang galing mgDeny kht halta nMn n d xa ngsasbe ng 22o.
♀ ?huwat, h0i wak mu q paasahen baliw k,,, d aq maninwla qng d xa ang magsasbe skn nyan. Ahehe, demanding?! Svhn lng nyang mhal nya q, iiwan q lhat ng mga toh! Ahehe,
*09-Sep-07, 22:29:34
♪ bhla k kung ayaw mu maniwala bsta aq ngsasbe lng ng 22o. pinainum q p nga un nung interviewhin q eh.
♀ ah bzta, ayuko p rng maniwla…
*09-Sep-07, 22:33:39
♪ cge n nga, bsta pra sken, nkgawa xa ng isang bgay n cguadong pgccchan nya pgdatng ng pnahon…
♀ bute kp, d kcng tanga ng bhez q, noh? Pe0, d nga, s tngen mu b mhal dn aq nun? D lang bilang kaibgan… mor dan dat?!
*09-Sep-07, 23:11:17
♪ ou nMn, hndi lng bsta konte bka higt p s inakala mu. Cguo my dhlan xa kea d nya un maamin. Peo alam q, mhal k nun!
♀ haAy, alamu b, d q n matutunang mgmhal ng iba. Manhd n q. nsktan tlg nya q b4, I cnt seem to muv on…
*09-Sep-07, 23:15:01
♪ tanga ka? Wg mu svhn yan, s dami p ng mga bgay n mangyayari s buhay mu d mu p dpt svhn yan ngaun., mnwala k sken.
♀ but I swear, 2matak n s icp q dat we cn nvr b 2gdr. But dr’s ztil a part of me sayng, “hold on and nvr let him go” ung tamang asa na mamahaln nya q,,, gulo!
*09-Sep-07, 23:33:04
♪ hay naku preh, lamu gn2 lng kcmple yan. Ung cnsve mu n ayaw mu ng umasa kaso cnsve p rn ng puso mu n gs2 mu p, ang 22o dun, gs2 mu p tlgng umasa. Kya wg mu nang dayain ang srli mu ikw rn ang mahihirpan eh. Ske wla namang mwawla db? Umasa k n lng hanggang s alamu n kya mu…
♀ peo xe, db, nakakasawa rn ang mghntay. Kea nga tanggap lng aq ng tanggap ng mga manliligaw eEh…
*09-Sep-07, 23:43:15
♪ alamu pre, ms mhrap p rn n mgmukang tnga s kasasabi s srli mu n ayw mu n magng tanga, kht ang 22o eh alamu nMn n gs2 mu tlgng mgpakatanga at umasa sknya kht n alamung wla n tlg…
♀ my point ka, but sumtyms xe, u nid 2 do d ader option 4 d sake of muving on… 4 d better!
☻(segway tau s quote) “weird luv s better dan no lav at all” –Paul Edgecombe, The Green Mile☻-> applicable to sken… =’(
*10-Sep-07, 00:00:54
♪ ou nga, tma un, un e kung alamu n wla n tlga kht konting pgAsa. Peo qng my nkta k n kht n kapraso lng d mu kyang dayain ang srili mu at pilitng wag n lng umasa. Kea nga ngaun, cnsve q xeu, mhal k nya! Bkt? Dhl alam q, dhl gya nya, lalaki rin aq!
♀ waAah… azar, mga tearjerker tlg keu! Lhat ng mga nangyayre smen diz paz few days, ngti-trigger un ng rebirth of hoping…4
*10-Sep-07, 00:11:25
♪ alamu xe, kmeng mga lalaki pg my mga bagay kmeng nsbe na eh pinaninindigan n nmen un kht n nsasktan kme, pra lng hndi msagasaan ang ego namen. Cguo gnun lng nangyayare sknya ngaun.
♀ pwes, mgsama cla ng ego nya! Ms mhal nya ego nya kesa sakn, haAy sad! Wen wil I fnd my hapinez? I gez dis morning. Wer? In my dreams! Gotta slip n, whatta healthy discussion. Ckret lng ntn n mhal q p xa, bka mcra frndship nmen, d q kaya!
*10-Sep-07, 00:13:09
♪ k0rek!
♀ (not an SMS) at sumang-ayon xa! D END! Wla n tlga. Luving in silence n nMn ang drama nmeng dlwa!
*10-Sep-07, 00:20:41
♪ (ito’y isang kanta na meju binago nya ang letra pra mg-fit sakn) ♫you climb and climb and at the top you fly, let the world go on below you, you are lost in time. And you don’t know really how it feels all you know is that he loves you in your dreams♫
♀ kantahan rw b q bgo m2log? “In My Dreams by Reo Speedwagon”…
_at mabilis na lumipas ang mga araw…_
*06-Oct-07
► today, we ABMC 1a, 1b and 1c, went to Broadway Centrum pra magng first audiences ng pilot episode ng “Kakasa Ka Bas a Grade 5?” [sing it! ☺] hosted by Mr. Janno Gibbs. Aun, Kodak-an ever! Heheh… peo hnd un ang topic natn… it’s bout HIM again!
► after ng taping, Jeff invited me to go to his place, bday nya xe weh. Edeh xempwe, andun c Kiven (yeah, you’ve read it right. It’s KIVEN, not KEVIN) at ang weird nya kamuh! The moment I step down my right foot there, upon seeing me, u can see his eyes smiling! He approach me, talk for a while, say our hello’s and hi’s. after a few moment, he embrace me- TIGHTLY- not just once but 10 times more! I was shocked upon seeing/feeling his lips sealing mine. I know it wasn’t right. I should’ve giv respct to Jeff. But still, he proceeded. (xo xowi, I cn’t hardly put doze moments into words) waAaHh…BLANGKO! Wla qng mramdamang kilig o anu! Puo smack lng nMn ang nangyre kea dnt wori! Kiz den hug den kiz den hug den kiz den hug… and so on…
I hav decided to go home coz it’s already getting late. While waitingfor a trip, he told me, “asan kiz q?” so I gave him a smack, he replied, “ahy duga, ba’t smack lng?” -SILENCIO- the nxt words of him resound on my ears… “I LOVE YOU!”
I didn’t answer, and he’s disappointed. It’s not because I don’t feel the same, it’s jaz dat I’m afraid to know that he was jaz drunk that’s y it ol happens! I WANT TO BELIEVE IN THIS but I cn’t fool myself! What if, he’s jaz kidding? I wnt to love him again but so many if’s and but’s are popping up on my mind. Damn it! A jeepney stopped in front of us, I hurriedly bade him goodbye…leaving dat swit nyt behind.
Smokes and dusts of the whole day trip irritate my skin but I don’t wanna wash my face and body. My stomach’s aching but I don’t wanna take my dinner. It's because I am afraid that if I do so, I might lose this feeling…
He’s drunk, he’s drunk, and he’s drunk…
I’m awakened by my heart’s loud scream. I’m not even aware that I’m already half asleep. I have decided to wash it all off and eat the pizza on the ref. I brushed my teeth but I could still feel his lips. Is this love… all over again?
Nxt tym we’ll meet again, I’m hoping that it’ll all be fine. [Bhez, anong lasa ng sarili mung mga slita?] again, let me say, SABIHIN LANG NYANG MAHAL NYA ‘KO, IIWANAN KO LAHAT NG MGA ‘TO!
Hope he won’t hesitate to move forward… not again!
*07-Oct-07
►I decided to confront Kiven via SMS if he mean evry li’l thing that he have done and said. Ang sbe nya, ou daw. Mhal nMn dw tlga nya q kht nun pa, xe nga bhez daw nya q. ouch! Eto n nmn kme… sbe nya he mean it peo nililinaw daw nyang kea lng nya ngawa un eh dhil nakainum xa. Huwat, apaka gulo nya tlg. Auko na tlg…
►(diz msg was saved on my phone’s note): yup, he told me dat he mean it, but he’s ztil feeling xowi for wat he did coz he was jaz drunk! Nothing has changed, wen I was in the full swing of my admiration, he’l jaz leave me hanging!
►poem section na puh itoh…
Fleur sous la pluie
And here I am again…
Waiting for a moment to come
I’d long for thee
To wash my tears away,
To quench my thirst again,
To nurture the soil where I stand,
To add some hue in my face,
To give my body strength,
To lift my hands and call upon,
To appreciate the light He gave,
To be with you even for a while.
For I am now burning with heat
So hot that it chained my voice
For you not to hear me calling.
I numb…
I’m afraid, please do save me,
It’s getting foggy around here.
I can’t see anybody of my kind.
I’m standing amidst an endless desolate tract.
The oasis is a mile away, I can’t reach for it!
I don’t have the means to walk.
Only you can save me,
For only the rain like you
Can shower off all the flower’s burden.
Je veux etre la fleur sous la pluie
I want to be a flower in the rain…
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Millar, Jamila M.
